“Don’t let today’s disappointment cast a shadow
on tomorrow’s dream”
It is always hard to end a
relationship, but the hardest part follows later, moving on. There’s no easy
way, you will always try to get back there, hope everything becomes the way it
was before. You feel a strange vacuum in your heart and desperately try to fill
it. Don’t talk to the person no matter how much you want to, block him on
facebook, Gmail and other social networking sites, and delete his number from
your phone. No matter how much your heart wants, don’t look back and falter,
let your brain rule for once. Keep away from anything that deals with the
person.
In my case it was different. I
tried being the strong one, stay in touch with the person and keep smiling. No
matter how hard it may seem, no matter how much I cried inside, I didn’t let my
sorrows show on my face. I never let anyone know what I was going through.
It pains, it pains a lot. I know
because I have been there, done that. But with time the pain eases. It may take
a day, a week, months or even years. For me it took a whole year and four
months. It took me a lot, I drowned
myself in work, I blogged a lot, wrote the first draft of my first novel, book
reviews, learnt web development, enrolled myself in extra courses, underwent
internships. Days were hard too, I silently
cried while in class, not letting my tears show on my face, cried whenever my
phone rang. Every morning I woke up I just wished the day would pass by and I
would get back to sleep. I kept myself distant from people, I didn’t want to
talk to anyone about it, I went to bed early and woke up late every morning
with tears in my eyes. I read a lot, I read novels, I read other people’s blogs,
I read articles on how much time it takes to move on and get along. A time even
came when I didn’t want to write anymore.
And I can finally say proudly that
I have moved on. I have emerged out stronger I am never looking back. Those
days were just a bad dream, a lesson from life for me. And I am grateful for
the friends I have, who make me laugh even in the worst of situations. I am
thankful for the summer internship I have. The city of Bangalore has really
brought me joy and I have the craziest roommates here who make me laugh all day,
even when I am angry. Each moment in Bangalore is memory I will cherish for the
lifetime.
Some things are just not meant to be the way
we want them. Over the years, through each storm I have been through, I have
realised the fact that whatever God does is in our best interests.
